Today has found me paging through volumes I wrote when much younger and far less learned from life’s failures and successes!!! To you they might not make sense. To me they are worth millions of reflections on how far God has carried me and how much he has harvested in me. I share a few now, not that you will flower anything but thought, and maybe even laughter or a tear, from their bouquet.
Faith is strange. No matter how much you believe in your heart, there comes a time when someone else’s heart must believe in you. 4/72
At times a sheared thread of faith is saved only by knowing that you can look to tomorrow before it becomes today; and total despair is avoided only by being too afraid not to hope in tomorrow before it becomes today. 6/30/70
Take a bow, sir. Your guidance is helping this jester come to life again. You’re right. It doesn’t take a perfect back to “laugh” or “climb a mountain”. Above all, I’ve decided tomorrow’s greatest hope could flow from yesterday’s despair; and today is the bridge I alone must construct to join my past and future. 1/75
I want to live; but what is life? I want what’s right; but how do I know? That’s just it. What I really want is to know; but I’ve so much first to find. I can’t be sure. I’m caught in a whirlpool going round and round and round, seeing many things but unsure exactly what are the concrete ones to which I’m meant to grasp. I want to face reality; but I can’t find it. I can see many hazy visions of it in different forms. Which is the one for me? Maybe, I’m searching too hard. Maybe, I can’t find it but must let it find me. I’m capable of letting different things happen in my life. This is what scares me. How do I know I’ll let the right ones happen? For so long I’ve been trying to mechanically draw my life and not let it be done by free and heavenly guided sketching. Now, having sensed this to be wrong, where am I meant to belong? Am I lost? Or am I just beginning to be found? 6/83
These are glimpses into my past and yet maybe, also, reflections of someone else’s present. So let it be spoken that no matter where any of us are today, God’s promise of tomorrow is all we need to grow and flower into all our hopes and dreams. Thank you God for throughout my many years granting me this very bouquet.
Uplifted in a Broken Down World 